Ethan was 4 yesterday darling and we are having his birthday party this afternoon. It will be the first of his birthdays that his Nana won't be there. I remember how much you loved his birthdays sweetheart, and how much you loved both of the boys. You were the perfect Nana and Ethan so loved to sit on your lap and have a book read to him. The day will just not be complete without you there with us darling. I am going to find it so hard, not having you at my side darling, but I must try and be strong as you would expect. Stay close to us all my love. We love and miss you so so much and you will forever be in our hearts. God Bless you my darling. XXX