Hello my darling. Today has been a really bad day. I have just cried and cried so much. I miss you every day darling, but for some reason today has been worse than normal. I sit here and speak to your photos and so wish that I could hear your voice again. I am so so lonely without you my love. I know you would not approve, but I long for the day I will be with you again. I am not frightened of dying darling, I am frightened of living without you. Part of me died with you that evening all those months ago darling, and I can never be the same man again. I am trying so hard to carry on without you Wend, but at the moment it just seems too difficult. I wish I had just a fraction of your strength and courage darling. You were such an example to us all and I feel ashamed that I am like this. God Bless you my darling Wend. Please stay close to me and watch over us all. I love and miss you so much my darling. Your loving husband, Ian XXXXX