Well my darling, today is the day I kept my final promise to you and took you to the Downs one last time as you wished. You told me so many times where you wanted your final resting place to be and at long last I have carried out your wish my darling. It was so hard my love. Matt, Sarah, Fiona, Marlene and I walked slowly to the Downs, almost as if we didn't want to arrive there. After sitting on 'your bench' for a while I scattered your earthly remains around the bench as you requested. As I did so it occurred to me how small and pathetic the ashes were for a life so well, fully and bravely lived. But now you are where you wanted to be darling and I hope it will not be too many years before I too can join you there. We all sat there for a while darling, lost in our thoughts and memories of you and as we did so, the grey clouds parted, the blue skies appeared and the sun shone through. Were you sending us a messsage Wend ? Were you watching over us all ? I know I don't need to go to the Downs to talk to you darling, but I know I shall feel close to you there. I shall visit you a lot darling when I walk the dog over there and come and sit a while with you. I so wish you were here with me now sweetheart. I love and miss you so so much. These tears just won't stop and the pain inside is awful darling. I long for the day we will be together again. Until that day my darling, please stay close to me, watch over me and comfort me when I am down. I will try and be strong for you and the children and grandchildren. Forgive me if I falter once in a while. I love you darling with all my heart and soul. Your loving husband, Ian XXXXXX