Well my darling Wend, the day I have been dreading over these past few weeks has finally arrived. The third anniversary of you being taken away from us. I don't know where those years have gone sweetheart, all I know is that I can remember holding you in my arms for the last time as if it were yesterday. I wanted you to have peace my darling and told you it was all right to go, but I lied. Inside I was screaming for you not to leave me my darling. Since that awful day, I have become just a shell of the person I used to be. You were everything to me darling. You were my reason for living. Now, I have no reason and everything seems so pointless. I know you would want me to go on and I shall try darling, because I promised you I would and that I would care for Matt and Sarah and the boys. I shall not break that promise. But it doesn't make me want to be with you any the less Wend. I know we will be together again one day my darling and then I shall be truly happy and complete once again. I love you with all my heart my darling. Your loving husband, Ian XXX