11 months darling. 11 long months since you have been gone. It still seems like yesterday that you were still here with us. I sit her in the silence of our home and can almost hear your voice and laughter echoing around the rooms.Every room is still full of your presence. Someone recently asked me, if I could have seen into the future when we first met, and could see the pain and sorrow awaiting me, would I still have gone ahead and the answer is Yes Yes Yes. I am so grateful for the years we had together my darling Wend. I just wish we could have gone on for longer together my love. There was so much we still had to do and say. That is the one word that hurts so much now...together. Because I will never again be able to do anything 'together' with you. I am now alone,single again, and I hate it. Not being part of a couple any more. My life and the house is so empty without you. I just try and fill each day with trivia just to pass the hours until I can escape again into sleep. I just hope the years pass quickly sweetheart until the day I am called and you are there waiting for me once again. I love and miss you so much my darling Wend. Your Husband, Ian XXX TALK It is comforting to have others about,As long as they talk amongst themselves and not to me. It's hard enough to take in what they're saying,and too much effort to speak, let alone think of an answer. But they have others at home waiting, And I dread it when they go, and the house is empty and I am alone.